Simple enough. I need to travel. I’m itchin for an adventure. Where to?
So the other day I arrive at my job in Faneuil Hall (Boston, MA) and my colleague tells me that some man just informed her there was going to be a zombie flash mob at 2. With hungry eyes, and wild curiosity, we propped open the door waiting for this zombie thing. Nothing happened so we went back in to actually do our job, and all of a sudden we heard moans coming from behind us. We turned around and this was the crazy, weird, cool sight that we saw.
Oh and the flash mob part? It’s coming next.
Roommate love. :)
What a great holiday. Christmas is one of my favorite times of year for a couple of simple reasons:
• It comes once a year and is surrounded by and filled with such joy, love and happiness.
• It’s a time to be with the ones you love sharing in laughter and good food (usually too much).
• You get to give. Love. Joy. Laughter. Presents. Memories. Traditions. Just everything.
This year, because of how dispersed my family has become all over the East Coast, we didn’t get to decorate until the last minute, but it was so cool and unique. Usually the holiday is preceded with weeks of decoration preparation but we didn’t start until Christmas Eve. Some might find this stressful but due to the fact that we were all just finally together again was enough to elevate any stress and make it one of the best feelings of the season. :)
Battery is dying on the phone, but long post-short, it was a great holiday that just flew by. Back to Somerville and the whole work routine Tuesday morning BUT then I get 3 days full of shenanigans with one of my dearest friends, followed by more friendly, family visits and a delicious 5 star meal with more amazing people. What a great way to bring the holidays to a close. :)
Actually feeling ready for this new year too. Full of optimism.
My sincerest apologies as I had completely forgotten about you for quite a while. But alas the lovely holiday season and spirit has awakened my mind and opened my eyes to you once again and I vow to be a much more loyal poster.
Ahhh yes…the root of all evil. Life, as is currently being lived, is quite boring. I have stayed in the town where I attended college to work at a convenience store and live in the tiniest of bedrooms I’ve ever lived in with stuff piled high, just to “save money” (which I’m doing horribly at) and head to the Boston area soon. FAIL. I do move out September 9th, just 3 short days before my birthday, and just 18 short days away, but it feels as if the last couple of weeks have done nothing short of drag along. Beating a mild, quickly-lived depression at the beginning of the week about getting stuck in a rut and not acheiving the things I want to and are capable of, I find myself occasionally slipping back into the lazy, non-productive mindset. As I sit here on my bed I choose to take a nap knowing very well that it will affect my ability to sleep tonight therefore making me, yet again, exhausted to open the store tomorrow and probably affect my singing at the competition in the evening. The alternative, productive and self-helping options are endless and include: looking for a job in Mass, working out, running, being in the nice weather, reading a book or newspaper, cleaning the house, practicing singing or music, planning my future, etc. ALAS I choose none of the above. I wonder if I do have it in me to make it. I continuously tell myself that this is a completely different situation; I’m here in Castleton, VT working a job I don’t like to just pass the time - once I’m out in the “real world” doing theatre and/or music it’ll be completely different because that’s my passion. It’s what I’m made to do and supposed to do. As far as I believe - true. Here’s where I doubt myself though…in order to get to these wonderful, life changing, dreamy places I have to go through all this bottom-of-the-ladder-crap and if I don’t have the motivation while I’m currently here, dealing with it how am I going to climb?! I keep trying to get myself going by saying that this is all training for the future and it will all pay off which I know is right, but I’m so used to working my butt off and then using it right away in college. I’m not used to working my butt off for however long until one day - BAM! It was worth it all those days, weeks, months or years. And I’m struggling with that the most. I know some of the basic things I need to do to get myself in line and just steadily working my way to the top (save money, work out/stay in shape, eat healthy, practice singing, dancing, acting and everything else daily, get into classes and lessons for all the stuff just mentioned, get a website made, resume, agent, postcard business cards, etc) but there’s still a part of me that is holding me back. It may be the side of me that says “You can’t do this, stop now.” or the side saying “You won’t do this and we both know it, stop now.” or maybe I’m just lazy. In any event I need to find what it is that drives me. That keeps me going strong no matter what. What I can think about any time of day, any situation and completely change my mind, attitude and anything at the flip of a mental switch. Only then can I conquer what I want and need to. Until then I continue to struggle, continue to search and pray for the day when I figure it over.
Rant concluded, and feeling a little better. Thank you tumblr.